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What Does Pink-Eye Have To Do With It?

 

My life is not turning out the way I had planned.

If you’re like me, you have a picture in your mind of what your life will be like. Who you will marry, how many kids you will have and where you will live. My dream of who I was going to marry and God’s will for who I was to marry matched up….but so far that’s the only piece.

You see, I thought I’d be a boy mom!

Yep, you read that right, a boy mom. I’m four years older than my brother and so I was like a second mom to him….. much to his protest. Poor guy. Growing up I always thought God had given me my brother, Jason, as a way to prepare me for the boys that He would one day bless me with. Boy oh, boy was I wrong on that one! Instead of boys, God has blessed me with girls…..3 sweet little girls to be exact.

 

I also never thought I’d become a “blogger” and actually still to this day don’t really consider myself one. I remember when blogs first came out, I was pregnant with my first daughter and someone told me about them. I remember thinking to myself, “Who would ever do that????” Ha, God seriously has a sense of humor!

Then last week something happened that I never would have dreamed in my wildest of dreams. My friends Courtney, Ruth, Clare, Darlene, Janelle and I were all contacted by a production company!

I know, seriously crazy!

First, I did my phone interview and felt that it went well so before we finished we scheduled my Skype interview.

But let me be real honest with you…..I was humbled and honored by the contact, by the interest….but I was wrestling and struggling with the opportunity.

I was struggling because I didn’t feel like this was for me, at least not for now, not during this season of my life…maybe not ever. Yet, I wanted to be open to God’s plans for my life.

You see, I strive to live my life in obedience to my Lord so I decided to fervently pray over this matter and to proceed with the process until I felt my Lord say “No.”

I don’t for a second believe it is a coincidence this opportunity came to me at the same time we are doing the Proverbs 31 series together.

This past week as I was praying over whether or not I was to proceed with this opportunity, a few things were going through my mind:

  • I am to bring good not harm to my husband. Proverbs 31:12- She brings him good, not harm, all the days of her life. 
My husband has a very stressful job…..a job that wears on him mentally, physically and even sometimes spiritually. My husband depends on me and when I am gone or overly busy…..it’s hard on him.
  • I am called to be his helper. (Genesis 2:20) If I were to do this, how would this be helping my husband?
  • Would this be something that would help or hurt my relationship with my husband, my children?
  • After God and then my husband, my next priorities are my children. How would this opportunity affect them?

I was struggling because on one hand I want to live my life boldly for my Lord and for my children to see. I want to respond in faith, exercising my trust by putting my faith into action. Just last week we were reading all about trusting the Lord.

Proverbs 29:25 “Fear of man will prove to be a snare, but whoever trusts in the Lord is kept safe.”

Have you ever noticed that sometimes it’s hard to know God’s will for your life?

I was struggling with the unknown.

I wasn’t at peace.

My mind seemed to be filled with the “What if’s”

Then the first Skype interview came and went and wasn’t able to take place, then the second Skype interview wasn’t able to happen…..both times I sat at my computer ready to go, finally the third interview was scheduled for Friday morning… then something happened.

I woke up that morning with Pink-Eye.

Seriously…….I looked like a pirate…….all I needed to say was “aye matey” and have a parrot sit on my shoulder and I could have gotten the part! My eye was swollen shut and even after cleaning it up my eye was still all puffy and well……pink!

I decided after the 3rd and final Skype attempt that this opportunity wasn’t for me and so I released it. Once I made the final decision not to go forward, I felt like a burden had been lifted off my shoulders. I had complete peace with my decision.

Why did this opportunity come my way and then not be for me? I’m not really sure. From my limited perspective, I can’t see the whole picture.

What I will say is that I am excited for my friends who are going forward in the process. We are all called to play different roles in life…..some upfront and some behind the scenes…..for me personally, I’m more of a behind the scenes kinda girl anyway.
But the roles that we play in God’s story don’t matter as much as our obedience to what He is calling us to.
For me right now, in this time, at this place I am called to be a helper and partner to Dirk, a mother to my 3 small children, a blogger and friend to many and most importantly a faithful daughter to the King of kings!

I am called to be a servant and to serve……..

I love what Emily at chatting at the sky shared this week on her blog, it touched my heart…..I hope it does yours, too.

“Our souls were not made for fame. Our souls were made for the Famous One…”

Emily, I couldn’t agree with you more!

What’s important is not whether we say “yes” or “no”, what’s important is that we walk in obedience…..keeping our eyes on Jesus each step of the way………walking by faith the life that HE has planned!

Love God Greatly!

 

 

 

 

 

 

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  1. I totally agree with you, if it’s for you you would never feel doubt. Can’t wait to see the programme though! Loving the Proverbs 31 study. Learning so much about who God has made me to be! And who knows Angela maybe God is still to give you your wee boy… x

  2. You are precious. And God who has a good plan for you — will walk with you, going before you and lighting the path YOU are to take.

    I love that you are seeing that path. Even with pink eye. :)

    He will bless.
    He always does!

  3. Genius line: “From my limited perspective, I can’t see the whole picture.” God is using you in great ways!!!

  4. Oh, I am so glad that He gave you a clear answer! Sometimes it’s so exciting for me just to hear Him and know He has answered me, even when it comes through something unexpected like pink eye! :) That peace is so precious! What an exciting life- trusting in Him each day! You are such an inspiration! :D much love to you and your family!

  5. Just this week Prov 29:25 was brought to my attention – granted I read it a bunch, but this week I understood it. And now it has popped up again. It is amazing that we have to be shown the way over and over, and yet God is patient and continues to whisper the direction to us. I’m glad His peace has settled your heart, it is such a blessing to know His peace.

  6. What a GREAT example of how we can practically put into practice the truths we are learning in this Proverbs 31 study!!! Thanks for the inspiration! May you continue to rest in his peace as you follow His path!! Hugs!

  7. Angela, I’m so glad I came across this post this morning. As I’m working through the Proverbs 31 study, I’m finding helpful answers in the continuous decision-making I face as a work-at-home mother. Somedays I’m faced with a to-do list so long it scrolls right off my computer screen! I am going to bookmark this post and revisit it when I am offered new writing opportunities. Thank you so much for sharing the way you worked through the steps to arrive at your decision!

  8. What a beautiful way to see that verse in action. I’m quite sure it’s very rare in our day for someone to choose to not go down the road to fame in order to bring good to her husband! Thank you for this example, really!

  9. Christina says:

    Angela, I totally related to this post when I read it. The opposite of you I always saw myself with precious, little girls all dressed in ruffles but instead God blessed me with two active, rambunctious boys often covered in mud! God uses my boys to teach me so many things such as patience and how to let my hair down, get dirty and enjoy life to the fullest. While I have not been offered fame, I have looked into going back to school but each time I do something comes up that we need the money for that would have been used for my classes…so after this happened several times I’ve finally gotten the message that this is not the right time as it would take a lot away from my family and they need me now more than I need the classes!
    Thank you for this reassuring post :)
    Christina

  10. Hi Angela. I love the way God opens and closes doors!!! I’m starting this study and going to play catch up this week but I ordered the book on my Kindle and the pages do not correspond with the pages we’re supposed to be reading. Is there a different post that describes the heading of the pages? Thanks.

  11. What a beautiful and honest post Angela…love it and love you!

  12. Courtney Jordan says:

    Crying as I read this right now. So proud of you! I totally understand. I left a job that I loved at Southwest Airlines when Jae Min came home. I have struggled with it almost every day since I left. Honestly, God continues to show me blessings in our choice for me to stay home full time. I don’t always recognize or acknowledge them like I should, but they are there. Recently, I received a very helpful and meaningful blessing that I know is God telling me that I made the right decision 3 years ago. Kuddos to you my friend!

  13. Thanks everyone for your sweet and endearing comments today!!! So thankful that we serve a Lord who walks with us every step of the way! May we all encourage each other to listen to God’s voice in our lives!

    Love God Greatly!
    -Angela

  14. So glad I found this post and you! Thanks for sharing from your place of vulnerability. God has a plan for you. We have to be listening for His voice. I am so thankful for the times when He orchestrates things to help me say NO. Especially when I am having difficulty doing it myself!

  15. What a wonderful post Angela! I can completely see what pink eye had to do with it -you responded to my comment on Courtney’s “I’m so Confused” post. I can completely relate to the part about your life not going the way you expected it to. I had so many different ways I thought my life would pan out but having two small children in the circumstances I have them is not what I had expected at all. I thought I’d be a career mum or at least in my own apartment with money to burn while my husband went off to his office job. Instead I live a very simple life with my two kids and my husband is a labourer. I wouldn’t change anything though -I get to live out the greatest joy of all – being a stay at home mum. I’ve had to let go of some dreams for a while but life is so much sweeter, even with less, than I ever dreamed growing up. And my heart soars in peace. I’m so glad you can be there for your husband when he needs you to be -we are such great gifts to our men, they need us so.
    Xx Sarah

  16. I have been following your n Courtney’s blog. I am amazed to read your blog n how you guys love the Lord. I ask my self are gals for real. Your families are an example to me n my soul longs for something like what you write about. How do I walk like girls are doing. I am very sadden right this moment,n pray that the Lord does something great in my marriage. Pls pray for me. I too am a mother to 3 beautiful girls n my husband is tough on them that hurts me. I have prayed but I feel the Lord is being silent.

  17. Oh Angela, what a crazy story!! Thanking God for you today: for your honesty, vulnerability, boldness, humilty, for your desire to serve your family well, and for making GOD famous as a result of your obedience to Him. You don’t just tell us to Love God Greatly… YOU live your life loving God greatly! So honored to be your friend. :)

  18. I loved what you had to say and am happy for your decision. To me it seems like the perfect one. It is hard for me to imagine how it could be right when your husband needs you and your children are young. However, if Janelle, or Darlene or Angela decide to do this I’m sure the Lord will bless it. I read all these ladies blogs and admire them all. Thanks for sharing your heart.

  19. Ashley James says:

    I did the challenge! I did the laundry without complaints or belly aching. Laundry was my least favorite chore

  20. Angela,

    This is great! I love watching people follow the Lord! It’s inspiring. Keep up the good work!

    Stay Strong

  21. Angela, I was so encouraged and blessed by the work of Christ in your heart. Thank you for sharing. This post was just what God wanted me to hear today!

  22. Good Job. My thanks for posting that. I will definitely come here to find out more and inform my neighbors about your writing.

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