The word Cancer has always been a scary word to me like it is to most people. My grandmother died due to breast cancer when I was very young so the fear of getting cancer has always been very real.
Two weeks ago, just 10 weeks after delivering my 3rd daughter, I was told I have skin cancer- melanoma to be exact. Its not that I was scared for myself but rather the thought that I might not see my 3 girls grow up is what brought me to tears. The good news to my bad news was that the skin cancer was caught early and would simply need to be removed.
The thought of having cancer in my body is what drove me to tears. At first I wasn’t worried,
its only stage one,
it’s only skin cancer…
its not that serious………..right?
I found out the news on a Friday and had to wait until Monday to make the appointment to have the area on my leg removed. It was the waiting and the questions that came with the waiting that caused me to fear. It was in the waiting that I began to worry.
Could I have cancer somewhere else in my body?
Will the cancer come back?
Are my chances of getting other types of cancers higher now?
The truth to the matter is we all have cancer living inside of us….its called sin. And just like the cancer that was on my leg, we need to have the cancer removed or it can eventually spread through-out our body and kill us if left untreated.
This past week in 1 John 3 we read how we are called to love our brothers and sisters in Christ and that who ever hates his brother is a murderer. My commentary said this:
“Christianity is a religion of the heart; outward compliance alone is not enough. Bitterness against someone who has wronged you is an evil cancer within you and will eventually destroy you. Don’t let a “bitter root” grow in you or your church.”
Bitterness or hatred against someone is a cancer of the heart and just like the cancer that was on my leg…..it needs to be cut out…for the sake of the patient.
Let me be honest with you, having the cancer cut out hurts. It might even leave a scar ……but it’s necessary in order to save your life.
Remember, love is an action not a feeling. Choose God over your hurt. Choose God over your desire to retaliate or not forgive. Choose God and allow the great physician to remove the cancer of your heart in order to save your life.
Love God Greatly,